Georgelzr said:
You can t argue with staff they will always have 2nd plan 3 promises and 4 excuse
Some people are really bored of fake promises and lazy staff.That s the real reason why people leave
Maybe some staff are really tired of entitled players and that's the real reason we don't do as much work as you would like.
I'm going to take a second to stop playing casual, relaxing, overwatch so I can respond to this thread that has made me even more demotivated to do any work for this game. I have a few things I want to get off my chest, and perhaps this may be super unprofessional of me to do so, and maybe some of you don't give a damn about me or what I am going to say, but at least it will make me feel better.
For those that don't know, I use to go by the name of mad, durnam, tecknician, and probably a few others I can't remember. Why so many names? So I can avoid interaction with the community because often times it causes stress that can easily be avoided. I've been a player since October of 2008, my freshman year of college. During that time I was a brief cg, gm, ge, admin, and some other crap positions that don't even matter. There was nights during college that instead of going out and getting drunk with my friends I would stay in and work on the game, there's was issues people came to me to deal with while I was in the middle of class or studying for tests. I've made friends, I've lost friends. PWO has been a big part of my life up to this point.
If you are still reading this, please note this may be a little long and you might just want to stop reading now and go back to your complaining. I wouldn't expect anything less from you. For those that don't though give me a bit more time before I get to the point.
Many people have wondered why I quit admin when I was known as Teck, I've given a lot of ******it answers since them, some of them half truths (irl job related stuff) but the main reason was you guys are the reason I left. The stress this community caused me during college was fine during college. I had a lot of free time on my hands and could deal with the stress. Going into the adult world though, I didn't want the stress of being an ADMIN for this community. I didn't want the stress with being responsible for this game. I took the easy way out and up and quit as admin.
About a year and a half? ago I decided to come back, because frankly while I hated what this community put me through, I enjoyed being part of the staff and working on the game. Rig was talking to me and said that another GE was leaving, so I told her under strict circumstances I'd be willing to come back and do some scripting. Some of the requirements were not interaction with certain people, made it clear my time I would be able to devote to this game was very limited because of my job and the fact that I didn't want to get caught up in everything. My expectations was to do small scripting work for the game. I apologize to you, the community, for not devoting as much time to this game as a volunteer as you would like for me to devote. I work in application development for a full time job. My job here is to write code. I code for all day at work, then I am expected to come home and code for pwo? Pass. For those of you who have jobs, and has had a job for longer than 1 year, how many of you would choose to go home and do the same thing you do at work but for free and deal with this community and its expectations?
The worst part is, even the enjoyable parts about being a staff member was no longer there when I came back. EVERYTHING felt demotivating and demoralizing. The pressure of the game surviving, the pressure of being the main scripter and having the responsibility of improving the game in the area that was blocking so many other content additions got to me. I felt alone on an island, with not even other staff members to turn to because they were also the source of my demotivation. I wanted to come back and put 2-3 hours a week into helping out the game and I felt like everyone expected me to put 20-30 hours into the game instead.
When working on project frostbite I was enjoy my time back, then Lua came around and I was initially excited for the change over. I was working those 20 hours a week I didn't want to work.. and that burned me out. I started taking breaks. Then I felt negativity coming from staff for my slowed down progress, and perhaps that negativity was just my imagination but that started to demotivate me. Then the community got to me with it's negativity towards lack updates and the hate towards staff. Quickly I realized I was going a month at a time without even thinking about pwo because well... when I did I was stressed out again.
Donar eventually took over the conversion of the script because he was getting impatient with me and knew that had to get done. I was told to go back to working on project frostbite. The fact that I failed to complete Lua and Donar took over for me was really demoralizing, and with the start of the NFL season I went silent again. I recently decided I had enough time away and wanted to complete project frostbite before winter. When I tried to log into our test environment (not sure if the public knows we have a test environment) I sent a message to one of the DEVS for help. I haven't heard a response in a think nearly a week.
Today someone reached out to me and said "youve been so quiet lately its scary, whats up", and being my stubborn prideful self I tried to redirect the convo and just avoid answering. The real reason? Because pwo just seems like a place of negativity so I tried to avoid it.
You want updates and changes to this game? How about motivating staff with positive attitude instead of threads like this. This current staff does more for this game than I have ever seen previous regimes because in part we have devs who can actually get real changes done, yet the negativity is at an all time low. I'm getting stressed out just by the fact I can't say what I really want and cuss every other word. I use to work on pwo because I enjoyed the game, the community, and doing the work I did. I didn't get paid, I didn't get any form of compensation for my time, if I was lucky I only received minimum amount of complaining about an update and a few thank yous. You guys have possibly removed every single reason I enjoyed about being a staff member.
I'm still committed to getting project frostbite done. Project frostbite will come after the Lua changes go live. I am hoping between project frostbite and the new features for lua the attitude around here will change and there will be more positive energy. Speaking for the staff, the things we do, we do because we believe its the best thing for pwo. People may disagree it's the right thing to do and that's fine, but it's when you question the intentions of staff members is when I start to have issues.
edit: Sorry for the post being mostly off topic. Now back to overwatch to relax. Maybe take a poop first.